True Confessions Of A First Time Dad: That Doesn’t Go There!

Now, at one point I had a music room in our house containing my guitar gear, amplifiers, and other music stuff in it so I could rehearse properly.  However, when Aniston was born that room quickly become a shrine to every Disney Princess ever created and more girl clothes than NYC Fashion Week.  So instead of going in my music room of inspiration I usually sing in the kitchen, while holding my 1 year old son, and watching my daughter become a 4 year old teenager in front of my eyes.

Not exactly how John Mayer probably does it, but I’m ok with it….for now 🙂

The other day I was at home rehearsing some songs for an upcoming wedding I’m doing.  I had my normal cast of characters with me as Easton wiggled in my arms and Aniston pretended to talk to someone on a plastic phone she was holding upside down.

For some reason this was the day Easton realized that the music he heard was coming from me and more specifically my mouth.  This was fascinating to him and apparently he wanted to find the source.  So every time I would sing, Easton would cram his whole hand in my mouth in search of those notes.

It started with examining my teeth, then my tongue, then all the way back to my epiglottis (that is the hangy thing in the back of your throat that looks like a punching bag).  When he realized that I was laughing when he did it which made it oh so much more fun.  However on one of his explorations he got a little phalange happy and his index finger missed my mouth and went right into my left nostril.

His little finger must have been modified with a diamond tip because it felt like a spear being inserted into my brain.  My eyes watered, he giggled, and then the blood started to flow.

When my 4 year old daughter Aniston saw what was happening she ran over to us.  Obviously she was concerned, but after finding out that Easton caused this injury by his finger failure her Doc McStuffin’s diagnosis was spot on.  “Daddy, that doesn’t go there!”

I know for me this happens a lot with my walk with God.  I’m walking along with Him and feeling as though things are going great and then all of sudden I feel a drop of blood from somewhere.  I look around only to realize that I had to put myself in situations, postures, or attitudes that didn’t belong there.  As a result I was hurting myself and other’s and maybe didn’t even mean to do it, but the reality is the blood was flowing.

In that moment I just wish I could go back in time and make things better.  We’ve all been there, but we’d like to take back the word, wipe off the sarcasm, get off the couch, turn the car around, or delete that message.  All we want is to reset the scene the way we know it should be and where all the pieces are designed to fit.

The only problem is that when I try to do the clean-up in the situation I usually make things worse.  The slow drip that started from my nose is now an arterial gusher spurting out all over the place with every beat of the my heart.

This verse in Lamentations really sparked my desire to write this blog and helped me triage the situations in my life much better.

“Restore us to yourself, Lord, that we may return; renew our days as of old” Lamentations 5:21

My desire to make things right, put things back, or take things out of places they don’t belong must first come by restoring myself back to God.  I need to confess, repent, and ask for forgiveness from Him.  We must restore ourselves back to Jesus in order for the tourniquet to be placed on the wound and stop the bleeding we’ve caused.

In John 15 Jesus calls this place we return to and remain in as the “vine”.  Jesus is the vine that provides true life and in it we can bear fruit by living our lives in and through Him.  If we do this and return to Him Jesus says, “Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.”

This doesn’t mean that cars will fall out of the sky and land in our driveway because the vine of God doesn’t work like a piñata.  However, the answer to our prayers for help and healing in our relationships are best heard when we are abiding in Jesus.  Resting in Him.  Following Him.  Learning from Him.  Confessing to Him.  These are the postures that keep our “fingers” in our life where they belong and not causing damage by going where they shouldn’t.

So restore yourself back to Christ today and let the true healing begin to take shape in your life and those around you.  If you don’t, you may feel light headed and woozy the rest of your life.


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